I Feel The Need To Share

I answered a post on Craigslist yesterday.The woman who posted was feeling as if her life was going nowhere.I wanted to do the feel good thing and cheer her up.Instead I posted how I really felt.Don't for a moment think you are the only one having a tough time.Here is the post: "
Yeah,well,theres a lot of us.I am 47.I nearly died two years ago thanks to my own reckless behavior.I am lucky to be alive.Lucky to have a very young girlfriend.Lucky to have 2 supportive ex wives,great kids and an awesome grandson.A best friend who has stuck by me for 30 years.And every day it is a struggle not to slash my freakin wrists.Everything and I mean EVERYTHING makes me angry.The world around me scares the hell out of me.The fact that I may never work again makes me feel like a burden.My short term memory sucks and I rarely have a day where optimism outweighs depression.I think the only reason I still get up on any given morning is that it would hurt the people I love if I didn't.And I think it sucks that this has to be my impetus to go forward.You are not alone. Grange" Lovely,no?But this was how I was feeling.She wrote me back and sent me a hug and thanks.Hmmm.If ANYONE has any idea of what I am going through would you mind telling me?Thanks

IMPORTANT NOTICE!!!!

I had the opportunity to watch the PBS childrens series "Telletubbies" this morning and as I watched them eat their oddly familiar pink "tubby custard" and then mention something that sounded like "meeple" afterwards I came to a rather astonishing conclusion.Custard sucked from a swirling straw that resembles an esophagus.Meeple. Only one conclusion:PEOPLE.Tubby custard is made from PEOPLE!!! AAAGH!!!!

A Higher Calling That Has Nothing To Do With God(And everything)

A good friend and I are about to go on a journey.Sworn as i am to secrecy I have never been more excited.What can we in the wrestling community do to make the world better?My friend has a VERY good way indeed.If this pans out I GUARENTEE that lots of our bretheren will be hopping on board.It is revolutionary in an area that has seen little in the way of change in the last 30 years.And as is the case in all things that are streamlined to run properly,it comes from pure intention and clarity of focus.Curious?You should be.And we will let you know about it soon.If you don't read about it in the newspapers first.More curious?Stay tuned

Annoying Relatives(And The Big Picture)

First and foremost this is for some good friends who are sorely in need of a parable.Secondly this post has nothing to do with my life now.But it has a lot to do with friends who may have left home without seeing the big picture.
I had an Aunt once.When I lived with her and my Grandma and other aunts and my uncle I felt that each encounter with her was akin to Chinese water torture.She was judgemental and had a superiority complex that would have been palpable were she not 4 years older than me.I believe that in the time we were together I suffered socially as my friends were afraid of her and my self esteem took a serious beating.As time rolled on I took comfort in the fact that the rest of my family was a gift from God and no amount of quibbling from and about her would change that.In time she and I had a massive blowout which ended up with the two of us locked in a room until we worked out our differences.I found that her toughness was her way of getting me to avoid a lot of pitfalls.That her superiority play was to challenge me mentally.She had a major impact on my life after that and I swear there were times I wish she was around to kick some sense into me.I loved her with all my heart after that.I lost her last year.She died at 50 from cancer.I spoke with her days before she left this plane.And it was almost comforting.But I will go to my maker knowing that I never said enough to her about how my life was impacted.

Some of you are in this position now.The angry kid and the aunt.And you want to book out the door.And I implore you.Yes,there are those who do not want you with that aunt.For their own reasons.But are those reasons enough to leave home?

Please know that my reasons for this are selfish too.You are people that I love and I don't want to head for the house knowing you are not there.

Just think about it

G'neesh!!I have it.And so do you!

About 30 years ago I got caught up in a comic book called(at the time)Green Lantern/Green Arrow.This was the first(sorry Frank Miller)attempt at portraying super heroes in the real world.It covered a journey of discovery across America for Lantern,Arrow,and a Guardian as they sought to find where the heart of this country was and how to help solve some problems.One such sojourn took them to an Indian diner where they were served the diners best(and only)dish...beans.As the Guardian took his first bite he remarked on how the dish reminded him of the G'neesh the inhabitants of Sirius 7 ate.Arrow commented that it reminded him of what mom made on one of her better days.I remember not only the story and the verbiage but I had my own version of G'neesh and when I felt sad and overwhelmed I would make it.It wasn't "comfort food".It was my food that centered me.That was mine and mine alone.It was the food that proppeled me forward.
The recipe?Doesn't matter.(but email me if you want the recipe)No,we all have our own G'neesh.A food that brings us to not just a comfort zone but to a positive place.I have heard of those who seek out Grandmas soup,Mac and cheese(boxed!)because it brings them back to the salad days,when money was scarce and you did not care.The world was right there in front of you.There for the taking.
So when it seems that life has you as bogged down as the inhabitants of the Mount Washington observatory in January.Obtain some G'neesh.
It works

I Have Seen The Face Of Divine Inspiration(He Is 3)

I have a message for you today.When the world seems to be nothing but madness.When your fellow man is as appealing for good inspiration as a pus sandwich,look into the eyes of a child.My grandson is beyond cool.He is vibrant>he is inspiring.He is AWESOME!You want to lower your blood pressure?I kick back with Jordyn and watch Videos(He knows all the words to "Feel Good Inc. by Gorillaz)Fishie videos,nursery Rhymes.Wrestling.He knows every WWE and Tna star.We talk about everything and I don't understand half of what he is saying and honestly don't care to.His enthusiasm is infectious.And love.Real true love is in my heart.My relationships are train wrecks.Even the best friendships have ebbs and flows.Me and Jordyn.Hey,he just wants to spend time with me.I will take that.
Hope you find this kind of contentment too

A Couple Of Apologies

My first is to you,my readers in general.I have been going through some emotional stuff lately and it has been hard to post.I am working on a series of sermons and will be setting them up this weekend so stay tuned.
The second is more personal.The last month my best friend and I have put on a spoof at the Wrestlingmark site.This action worried and then enraged two folks who I love very much.I consider myself blessed to have friends like this and want them to know I meant them no distress.Please forgive me and know that ir is rare in this world to find people who TRULY care.And I say with all certainty that if I was in trouble you would be called immediatly.